Swimming In Your Stomache

Alright, folks, here's the good news. My size 8 shorts are too big. Wooo! I also decided to treat myself and get some CD's. I ordered 2 Antje Duvekot CD's off www.cdbaby.com and am patiently awaiting their arrival. If you haven't heard of her you should check her out. I'm friends with her on MySpace. I also had a good day with Mom yesterday. We went to the Mall and I got the 2 newest Alanis Morissette CD's. The Collection, which is made up of her most recognizable songs and her "favorites". I also got her brand new one Flavors of Entanglment, which I love love love. It's got the same emotion and some of the same style as her earlier stuff, but it's also been tweaked and sort of updated. It's a good different.

Now here's the bad stuff. Well, not really bad, just things that are worrying me that I should probably put out there. Somewhere.

As the whole country knows, our economy sucks lots right now. And I'm very worried that I won't be able to get a student loan for the fall. VERY worried. A few weeks ago it looked like even if we couldn't get a loan (because our loan company was one of the ones that decided not to do student loans or something) we'd still be able to get the money. Now it looks like no. We got a letter from our loan company saying they could offer us some other type of loan, but we won't get details on that until next month. So we won't even know if we can apply until then, and if we do apply there's no guaruntee we'll get the money.

So I'm very upset about that right now. Mostly because the thought of hanging around the house working where I work now possibly long-term makes me want to punch a puppy. Well, not really. But it makes me very very sad and angry. I'm intelligent, dammit, and I have dreams. I will not have them squashed so early. I'm not going to be a coffee pourer or a server for the rest of my life. I did not go to a good high school and work my ass off for an education to not finish or to pour coffee and deal with people's bullshit. "I wanted 7 and a half sugars, not 8. and I wanted a bacon egg and cheese sandwich, not an egg cheese and bacon. And is that croissant toasted? What do you mean you can't toast it because your toaster will catch fire?? And can you be a dear and spread the cream cheese on the bagel for me?" NO! I CAN'T! As you can see, I work with a bunch of fucktards for the most part and the manager can't even write out a schedule without fucking it up. So NO, I will not put fucking non-fat blueberry cream cheese on your goddamn low-fat toasted bagel. Do it yourself, it'll be good exercise! By the way, don't bother doing lowfat anything if you're eating at Dunkin Donuts, asshole.

*Sigh* I feel better.